Times

  I am bored.I also have a buzz which boils down to,...I'm home and can only drink more.This needs not to be a pattern. I want to be out having fun but noooooo.....lol. The one I love is doing the UI'm married family thing and everyone else is sick of my shit...I guess.

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Reality

   I get so fucking tired.I dont really " want to be heard" I want to not have to talk. I'm never going to live in my own little perfect world because other people live in it and consistently have to fuck it up for me.The human condition...

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Blowing in the wind

We ll even though I removed myself from the problem, this is still not cool.What the hell.It is really to bad that every one gets so bent the fuck out of shape... Its just a game, and its unfortunate but no one is going to mak e their money back.
Lets just see, at 80 a month for..9 months...thats a nice chunk of change.

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I Hate A Monday

So, its Monday and I reall ywish I had one more day to lay around and not fel like crap.But, alas, it is the begining of a new week. I went to work, forgot my keys, walked into a world of crap and...had to be there with ' the one who shall not be named' all damn day....it sucked.Tomorow I get to add a dentist appt to the mix...FML. At bowling and kinda surprised to find everyone knows i quit.
Cassius was good with / Butch. I was glad. I took the harness off himn at the door, he took the f off!!! Came right back tho so that was cool.Didnt even run off...tore ass down the driveway..and that is all.

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Got alot of crap out of the way so far.So much more to go.I wonder really where this is coming from? I woke up this morning with a a small fire under my ass and got in it.

In going through boxes of old correspondence I decided to just throw alot of it out.I know I wont regret this move.They are notes passed back and forth in High School.I kept all the ones from Jessica of course.

It is going to bother the living Hell out of me that I can't remember if I got rid of all the stuff I packed together from the Wade days.I can see it in my mind , packed into a very colorful gift bag, but I don't see it anywhere.It bothers me that I even think I COULD have thrown it away.I can't imagine really bringing myself to part with it because of what it was and at the same time I think that might be WHY I did it.

That man was the love of my life.I did some off the wall craziness to be with him.And I would do it again, if I had it all to do over.Of course knowing what I know now...if I were the person I am today instead of the lay down and take it person I was, things may have turned out a bit differently.But...as we all know, I believe everything happens for a reason,the way things are supposed to be.Oy.

Back and Forth I Sway With The Wind

I hate endings..I hate not being part of the decision.I just need to go away from myself, my life..My life is boring and tedious.So few little spots of fun and the rest is just BLAH. No drama..I like no drama,I've had quite enough of that already.Just bored and lonely.I keep reading that fucking message over and over again.I just don't get people.including me.The minute he laid all his shit out there I should have jetted.But being me I stayed because we all know the healing power of me after all LOL My ability tp fix the broken, to help those in need..whatever..I quit that shit righjt now. I will make my decisions with more than my eyes and ears..listen to the words not the voice.