In playing phone tag, I f'd up on being "it"...I missed a memorial service on Saturday and feel like crap about it. I wouldn't have been able to go anyway, but I didn't even know. I found out through someone's comments on facebook .I need to make a phone call but I don't want to. I'm no good for this shit. I don't really let those kind of emotions out. I hope that people know thats just how I am.I can't deal with it.I choose not too..whats the point ?I call and say what? I'm really sorry for you'r loss.Hope your ok.Ok I gotta go now,I can't talk to you about this??? My father gets so pissed at me that I'm like that...I can't help it..I don't know why I'm like that I just am.