Over... Again

I meet a guy I'm not to sure about in the first place... but he keeps talking like he wants a lasting thing.. I buy into it..as usual much to fast, and boom.Its over already.Its all him.I don't know what its like to be fucking crazy.I get to live that through others . He sends me this long text to break it off...

I'm sorry 4 bein a coward but thats hu I am my life is so fucked up right now & Im in no way shape or form 2 be a boyfriend to u or any 1

U R Awsum & deserve a good person. I m a piece of shit hu cantlove u or even like u when I dont even love or like myself. Im not gonna string u along any longer u dont deserve that.Upon completion of my 4th step I'm not only fucked up from that I have an ex wife who is trying to destroy me & my kids as well as an x girlfriend wit dat kid just sent me proof of a baby that i dont wanna b part of & dont know what to do.Im sorry for startn this wit u I had no rite 2 do this 2 u.please turn the other way and run like hell & dont look back.im truely sorry for puttin u thru this and endin it in such a cowardly way.I'm truly sorry for hurtin u believe me im hurtin so bad u just dont know.Goodbye, Kevin

I tried to type it word for word but it was such a mess..I am not even sure I didn't get totally played but that is my evil paranoia.The idea that someone couldve been that into me and got scared because they actually cared is just to far fetched..played is easier.No I dont think I was.It was sincere.He's a mess.I hope he gets it together,for his own sake.

Melanie told me Chris said I should go over to the other side of the fence...I told her it didnt matter to me man or woman..as long as someone loved me.She said I was breaking her heart...I miss Rene badly right now.I want to cry... my miserable luck.

My freakin out over it all even got Jessica to call me this afternoon.And my buddy Joe Joe to message me.I need to go to bed and sleep now..